So my daughter has been calling me complaining about how yucky she feels after receiving her Depo-Provera shot, with it's accompanying nausea, fatigue, rash with raised spots and difficulty cleaning her house. I gave my advice on how to pre-soak her dishes, lay down and come back to load em up in the dishwasher later, and how "not-important" it is to have a spic and span house etc.
A couple days later she calls bauling saying she's "pregnant" after receiving the Depo shot. OMG, what is all that progesterone from the Depo shot going to do to the fetus? We read everything we can find about getting pregnant after receiving the shot and all the articles are about how women have a hard time "getting pregnant", not "what happens if you "get" pregnant after receiving that shot.
My mind is racing. I feel my research Gestapo engine kick in. I'm scared to find out if the baby is going to grow a sixth toe, have a cleft lip or become homosexual after such a serge of hormone during critical formation time. (Wow, I can't believe I actually questioned homosexuality as something to be afraid of compared to a cleft palate!!! I'm not homophobic!!) Then I realize that my own fears have rubbed off on my eldest. She has become me. Miss paranoia looking to find a flaw in her child to blame herself for.
I'm afraid I've carried my fear of causing Aub's problematic ears with me ever since I took Bendectin for nausea while trying to keep my job at Pepperidge Farm cookie factory with morning sickness. She is now doing the same thing about her daughters weight. Never in my life have I seen anyone worry about their babies weight like I've seen Aub fret and frown about Claralynne being little. She is not too little. That kid has the healthiest lungs on a kid I've heard. Why every time her mom gets on the phone with me, Claralynne lets me hear her mighty screa...... I'm mean singing voice!!
My girl had her bases covered. She did what she was supposed to in the order needed to hold off on having another child. I think the only explanation for it is that this cutey pie really wanted to come earlier than later. If the birth control had gone into full force, what with that we read online about how difficult it can be to "get" pregnant after using Depo, this baby might not have had a chance to get here for years. (That's if we actually do, as spirits, get to pick when we come here.)
Maybe a baby is just the consequence of sex!
A couple days later she calls bauling saying she's "pregnant" after receiving the Depo shot. OMG, what is all that progesterone from the Depo shot going to do to the fetus? We read everything we can find about getting pregnant after receiving the shot and all the articles are about how women have a hard time "getting pregnant", not "what happens if you "get" pregnant after receiving that shot.
My mind is racing. I feel my research Gestapo engine kick in. I'm scared to find out if the baby is going to grow a sixth toe, have a cleft lip or become homosexual after such a serge of hormone during critical formation time. (Wow, I can't believe I actually questioned homosexuality as something to be afraid of compared to a cleft palate!!! I'm not homophobic!!) Then I realize that my own fears have rubbed off on my eldest. She has become me. Miss paranoia looking to find a flaw in her child to blame herself for.
I'm afraid I've carried my fear of causing Aub's problematic ears with me ever since I took Bendectin for nausea while trying to keep my job at Pepperidge Farm cookie factory with morning sickness. She is now doing the same thing about her daughters weight. Never in my life have I seen anyone worry about their babies weight like I've seen Aub fret and frown about Claralynne being little. She is not too little. That kid has the healthiest lungs on a kid I've heard. Why every time her mom gets on the phone with me, Claralynne lets me hear her mighty screa...... I'm mean singing voice!!
My girl had her bases covered. She did what she was supposed to in the order needed to hold off on having another child. I think the only explanation for it is that this cutey pie really wanted to come earlier than later. If the birth control had gone into full force, what with that we read online about how difficult it can be to "get" pregnant after using Depo, this baby might not have had a chance to get here for years. (That's if we actually do, as spirits, get to pick when we come here.)
Maybe a baby is just the consequence of sex!
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