I'm Going Back to 3rd!

It's been a month since I complained about the issues with my co-workers in cardiac rehab and I can hardly believe I've managed to survive the entire month let alone the full 8 months since I've been there. Friday will be my last day...... THANK GOD!

I went back to the cardiac floor (3rd floor) full time. I never really left, only worked there one day a week. I went to talk to Janet, my nurse manager, and asked her how long my benefits would last if I just quit rehab until I found another job. She said "one month".

I told her I was so distraught I didn't even care if I had another job to take it's place, and that I was going home and bawling all the time with the way I was being treated. She asked me "what about coming back to our floor?" I told her I'd looked online and there wasn't a job for day shift offered! She said she doesn't post the day jobs for a "reason". I told her I'd kiss her feet if she'd let me return and started to cry. She hugged me and said I shouldn't have to feel that way.

So Monday I requested to get out of rehab A~S~A~P and was granted my wish. Friday will be my last day.......Wahoo!

Today I went up to the 3rd floor to schedule my remaining days in September and Theresa, our best CNA, helped me with the computer scheduling! She looked at me from the corner of her eye and said, "I hear rumor you're returning full time?". I shook my head to confirm her question. She pulls her arms down to her legs and gestures "that's so AWESOME......that is so AWESOME"! She said it will such gusto I was totally hyped!!! I felt so appreciated and wanted..........something I haven't felt in a LONG TIME!

She was so elated with news of my return I started to cry! I was so happy I couldn't believe it! I told her my story and she was pissed. She couldn't believe they've been treating me like they have and seemed pretty disgusted.

Theresa's reaction confirmed to me that I've been treated like shit for too long! I was starting to believe their poor opinions of me!

~I feel like a weight has been lifted~

I am going to miss the patients in rehab though! I'm going to miss the job itself, what it accomplishes. We really see how exercise changes people, how they start out looking at the other patients and don't feel like they'll ever be as fit or able to be like their peers, and then later express how proud they are of themselves because they surpassed their own expectations of themselves.

I've been held back by my peers. I have not been allowed to participate or give of myself as I had hoped. I feel my peers have been so intimidated that they have been "reaching" to find fault and have especially gone out of their way to make my mistakes known to everyone they can, especially to our superiors and the director.

Nate says when I am out of the way they'll have to find another person to place blame on. It'll be very interesting indeed.

I don't want to hold a grudge! I'm just happy I have a floor to go back to! I'm especially glad I never quit the floor entirely or I'd really be in a bad place right now!

It has made me appreciate where I came from and I'm looking forward to having some days off. It won't be right away though because I'm scheduled to work Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday, 12 hours each day! Yikes!

I'm not complaining!